Well, it has been quite the Summer of 2009! It was quite unexpecteddd ~~~ At the moment, I am feeling indifferent to everything. So much has happened that… I can’t even put it into words O_O;;;. So, I’m going to leave it like this… a mystery. (:
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I start Uni IN A DAY @______@;;;. OMG OMG OMG… I’m pretty nervous =-=;;;… I wonder how different it is in comparison to high school… and what is the level of difficulty o_O;;… I need to do very well this year… because I need to transfer -.-” ~ I’m hoping everything works out fine. Um, getting to King’s Campus is such a hassle LOL. One hour commute~~~ two hours wasted every single day… =-=;;. And guess what… I thought going into university means waking up LATE til 10-11 am ish. But really… that’s not the case… On Monday, I need to wake up at 6 am… Haha… this is worse than a regular school day… ALSO, on Monday… that’s the longest day I will be at school for… from 8 am to 5:15 pm… Crazy right? Lol. I need to sleep so early la T-T;;….
Anywhoooo, I’m going to enjoy my new bedroom now =D. I’ll post up some pictures later… and my earrings collection LOL <3.
You have got to be joking me.
I feel like I’m lying to myself… Just simply so I don’t know the truth… Or bother speculating the truth… I’m so tired…
At 1:37 am Charles messages me and sent me this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qqkeqjR9otw
I was taken back a little because he never sends me songs to listen to… and also we haven’t been talking… Then I messaged Johnny and he sent me the translation to the song… Here are the lyrics…
Big Bang - Stay
Can you feel me now
Take a deep breath and let me explain
All the pain that’s been wreckin’ my brain
Gettin’ so close to goin’ insane
And see you standing there
And the feelin’ never gonna be the same
seems like we missed the whole damn train
Blame is all we have for us
And I can let in get in the way
Even if the love is the costly price to pay
Lookin’ back life love was the game of cliche
Gotta move away sacrifice my heart and let you breath again baby girl
Everything is too late now,
The way she never spoke at times,
That our relationship was becoming solitary,
Now that I’m alone
Honestly…
Her being by my side was something I thought was natural,
The mail I sent; User unknown
In the empty closet,
The promise ring we chose together for her birthday,
Lays in the corner
Before the door closes, baby please don’t go away,
I regret not expressing my feelings, what you to say,
Although I come to regret now, I know it’s late,
There is nobody who can take her place,
I want you to stay, want you to stay
The last words, yes,
They were ‘Thanks’ rather than ‘Take care’
It shows it’s the end, getting over me
It’s the proof that I could not give what she wanted,
The key of the mail box, End of the story
The night will come in the room I’m alone in,
I can’t see the lady who would be smiling in pictures
There will be no chance that I can forget you,
Baby please don’t fade away,
You won’t erase all day,
Want you to stay,
Because it makes me this sad, I know it’s late
Her existence which I had to keep,
I want you to stay, want you to stay
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I started to ball my eyes out again lol… Speechless.
- that I would stop being in depression between the months of Feb - May…
- that I found happiness.
- that I can give it my all and get something in return - happiness.
- that I can fully trust someone and depend on someone because they told me to. And I believed them.
- that I wouldn’t fall flat on my face…
- that I won’t be foolish.
- that I should have listened…
- that this is an unforgettable experience and definitely not regrettable despite the pain and suferrings tied into it.
I know that I’m grateful for whatever has happened. Just having a bit of a hard time letting go… which I’m sure will happen with time. Time eases the pain, si?
♡ ◦ ε м і ∫ ε ε ◦ 穎穎〃 says:
*we took a walk
*talked a bit
*near the end of the walk
*he was like
*i still don’t think we have a future
*there are things that i realized
*it won’t work out
*i’m like as long as there’s feelings there’s willpower
*and it can work out
*he’s like no it’s not that simple
*i’m like yes it is if iyou make it
*he’s like i don’t want to talk about it
*i’m like i’m just afraid it will too late when u talk about it.. i’ll lose you … then i hugged him and i broke down…
♥ii таѕнϊϊ ▪ таѕн ° х | sick cycle carousel, says:
*awwww =(
*and then what happened?
♡ ◦ ε м і ∫ ε ε ◦ 穎穎〃 says:
*he didn’t know what to say
*then he’s like emi.. go home..
*and like tears were streaming down my cheeks
*and i waslike
*give me a kiss
*he did
*and i left
