September 2009
2 posts
How have I been??
Well, it has been quite the Summer of 2009! It was quite unexpecteddd ~~~ At the moment, I am feeling indifferent to everything. So much has happened that… I can’t even put it into words O_O;;;. So, I’m going to leave it like this… a mystery. (:
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I start Uni IN A DAY @______@;;;. OMG OMG OMG… I’m pretty nervous =-=;;;… I wonder how...
August 2009
17 posts
Lol?
You have got to be joking me.
Sometimes...
I feel like I’m lying to myself… Just simply so I don’t know the truth… Or bother speculating the truth… I’m so tired…
Lloyd - Pusha
Emichi?
My heart still beats…
1 Song To Describe It All
At 1:37 am Charles messages me and sent me this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qqkeqjR9otw
I was taken back a little because he never sends me songs to listen to… and also we haven’t been talking… Then I messaged Johnny and he sent me the translation to the song… Here are the lyrics…
Big Bang - Stay
Can you feel me now Take a deep breath and let me explain...
I thought:
- that I would stop being in depression between the months of Feb - May…
- that I found happiness.
- that I can give it my all and get something in return - happiness.
- that I can fully trust someone and depend on someone because they told me to. And I believed them.
- that I wouldn’t fall flat on my face…
- that I won’t be foolish.
- that I should have...
Tears just doesn't stop pouring.
♡ ◦ ε м і ∫ ε ε ◦ 穎穎〃 says: *we took a walk *talked a bit *near the end of the walk *he was like *i still don’t think we have a future *there are things that i realized *it won’t work out *i’m like as long as there’s feelings there’s willpower *and it can work out *he’s like no it’s not that simple *i’m like yes it is if iyou make it *he’s like...
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I just wanted to talk… to pick things up where they were left off… I apologize for causing you more trouble and more pressure… I didn’t know that I was a burden… I shall do my best and hope that everything will turn out well.
“I’d rather take the pain and sacrifice everything than not to be loved by...”
– Wing Wing
All I need...
So, only one person makes the decision now? No longer two in a relationship? What happened to working it out? What happened to the promises? The things you’ve said? Am I not worth the sacrifice? Are you afraid I’m going to do what your exgf did even after your sacrifice? I thought you had more faith in me… Emi’s not worth it eh…
"I don't know if I can keep the relationship."
The amount I sleep everyday seems to plummet day after day O_O;;. I’m so tired but, I can’t sleep!!! =-=;;. Anyways, I think Charles made it quite clear last night… Although, he said he won’t tell me the “situation” until September 1… when his father leaves. Wanna know what Emi thinks? Emi thinks Charles fell for his exgf again… Emi also...
Emi's heart is breaking...
What now?…
worst sleep ever
I took an extra sleeping herbal pills yesterday from my normal dosage of two. I thought that would knock me out cold xD. But, no. Lol what an agonizing sleep… I woke up early too.. I slept around 4:30 am… I should be in bed shouldn’t I… I’m tired tho… but, I can’t rest…
Put me out of my stupid misery… I’m so foolish aren’t I? I...
Emi is hurt...
I don’t know what to do… I am crying… and I feel stupid. I feel very stupid. Why is Charles doing this to me… Emi’s not really loved… nor cared for…
I mean...
I would assume that I would be the first person that he would meet when he returns… But, I guess not. I’m 100% sure that I am probably the only person who REALLY wants to see him out of everyone he knows… He’s out with his friends right now… Lol. I just want to know that I am loved and cared for. I’m so lost right now… I don’t know what to think....
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How much pain can one’s heart take?
July 2009
3 posts
Ah...
Sick to the stomach, what is going on overseas?
Must have… hope, faith & love.
I think it's about time that I update this...
I am back into my stressful mood again =-=;;;…. Where do I begin… Uhem… It starteddd officially on May 15, 2009. That was the day I become someone’s girlfriend. Charles’ girlfriend. So, how did that go? Well, I must say I was quite the happy person when our relationship started. He is so sweet and he treats me so well. I was definitely on cloud 9. Things were great...
May 2009
1 post
ahh.
Update Update UPDATE.
Charlene Choi - 二缺一
My Heels!
I got these 10 cm heels ;D. They are very pretty aren’t they?
And yes I can walk in them. On top of that, I can dance in them. XP
April 2009
19 posts
Is the friendship long gone?
Although the past 2 years I’ve been bickering about how some old good friends of mine just suddenly stop being good friends with me, I still miss them very much. As to this day, I am not clear as to why they just disappeared. It hurts a lot actually. Tears comes natural whenever this happens… lol.
Wait, most of the cases… they got a girlfriend. But still, it doesn’t give...
R.I.P. Alvin's Father
We were at Alvin’s Father’s Funeral today. It was a very emotional experience for all of us that went. As he walked down the aisle towards the front of the church, he was holding a picture of his father. Behind him was his father in the coffin. Just seeing the way his expression was when he walked down the aisle was tear-jerking. I tried my best to conceal the tears. Thank goodness, no...
pet peeves.
1. Not showing up on time.
2. Not showing up on time even with reminders.
3. Not showing up at all.
4. Unreliable.
5. Irresponsible.
Oh the list is not done yet.
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I feel that something is missing in my life…
I’m not at eased. But, I’m not sure what it is.
Something is missing and what’s bothering me is that I don’t know what it is. It’s haunting me every day whenever and whereever.
Honestly, ugh. I hate this feeling. It’s not leaving. I’m trying to keep myself busy with as much things as possible but, it...
hangout with my coussinnnnn.
I had a fun day with Mikee! We went to the carnival on Centerpoint premises xD. We took pictures as well. I played the “Pop the balloons” game. I won a tiny doll. It’s “Shifu” from Kungfu panda ROFLMAO. It’s pretty cute xD. THEN we went to buy cotton candyy!! I got a picture of us to eat the cotton candy at the same time. It was his idea haha. Take a look:
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“The bitter clamor of two eager tongues.”
– William Shakespeare
i feel like it.
Oh, prior to working today. I had a spare 2nd period and I went home at 10:30 am to nap til about 12:10 pm. Then I went to school to find all of my table mates for prom already paid. So, I had to pay my fee. $90 =_____=;;, I’m crossing my fingers hoping I would win the raffle ticket ><;;. Anyways, my prom date seemed to know who to ask to find out which table I will be sitting. He...
pooey friday.
Rawr. I went to work today and sold shoes… =___________=;;. Then I went home and showered. THEN, I decided to watch Jackass Number Two. I was not entertained =-=;;. Now, I’m here blogging roflmao meanwhile, my other friends are going to a partyyyyyy. I think it’s good that I’m not going? Lol, apparently there’s a lot of girls? Lol yeh… W/e. I’m going to be...
Omegle →
If you have nothing better to do. You can splurge away your anger or w/e that you want to say to strangers! And no, they are not bots…
for the ladies or maybe even guys...
Introducing to you The Rejection Hotline! The number is (647)476-4910! If there’s a random girl/guy that is stalking you for your number and you don’t want them to have your real number, you can give them The Rejection Hotline number! If you guys are curious, just calll the number and be humoured =).
Now for my day, it has been DULL and tiring. Arghhh!!! I’m on break right now...
it's drama.
I sense that there will be drama… erupting very soon. There’s going to be a series of “Dirty Laundry”. I dunno if I’m ready to hear them all. Lol. Can’t we just focus on school and not have these drama shit? Geez. THAT’S WHAT I’M GOING TO DO. HELLO ACADEMICS <3. OR, let me be on the sideline. Then it’s all cool.
Oh and this is a cute cat!!!...
colourgenics:
This site is amazing… you do a test and you get your results. Omg. This is so accurate lol. Try it guys, http://www.goldinuniverse.com/default.asp .
Name: Emily Date: 4/5/2009 Colorgenics Number: 26435107
You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the...
weeeeeee.
Hey guysssssss! My prom date is gonna be Sina! I know it’s going to be fun xD. Today I confirmed with Baha and he basically has a complicated love life. It’s better I find someone that I can depend on for sure. He just has a lot of stuff to resolve. But, anyways~~~ feeling goooooooood. Today I went to dinner with Stas and Baha. They are so cute together LOL. The gay lovers. Awesome to...
to do list:
Must call UofT
Must call York
Must write a letter to Uoft, Ryerson and York
Must study for english in-class essay test
Must find an object to represent the character in “Things Fall Apart” (The District Commissioner… I got a character that has no name in the book. LOL.)
Must get ready for chemistry test
Yey. Stuff to do.
1 tag
life?
Blehhhh. Why do I feel like shit all the time now? Lol.
Today was just another day =-=;;. Except I hung out with Amy and her bf. He’s some crazy but, awesome driver LOL. PAUL WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO DRIVE EMI TO WONDERLAND? Anyways, then we went to HWY 7, Wasabi to eat dinner. The food was amazing… I should have taken some pictures of it LOL. Okay w/e. So, I got to know her bf a little...
“Those who think it is permissible to tell white lies soon grow color-blind.”
– Austin O’Malley
Lol damn. True say…
C'est très confusion.
Okay, so I have another guy friend that asked me out to prom… Me thinks Baha probably likes a girl so, I don’t think I’ll be going with him. We’re gonna have a dinner on Saturday and a talk about prom. Lol, Charles provided a list of reasons why he said he’s unsure. They are quite dry but, it seems realistic tho. What annoys me is that if those were the reasons, why...
March 2009
8 posts
I never knew what the song meant until Julie and...
1 tag
emi is tired.
Rawr. I thought I had enough sleep but, I guess not. Or maybe, I overslept these days and hence, my tiredness? Weird. I feel like moping around my house… and do nothing. But, in about an hour and a half… I have to go to work… I need to iron my dress shirt before I go too. =-=;;.
Has the feeling left? Actually, the feeling consists of awkwardness and guilt. Awesome combination,...
frustration.
I just got off the phone with Paul… Lol, he thought I was mad because he was tired and wanted to sleep. Funny boy he is. xD. Anyways, I want to write away in this blog as to how I feel with my life. I guess I shall begin…
Ever since the “incident” that happened last week… Saturday… March 21 me thinks? It’s probably around there… Baha msged me and...
midnight eve chat.
I’m currently talking to Paul. He’s half-asleep. He will eventually be reading this post. He better. =P.
Goodnight.